traumatize

今天遇到了不好的事
受到了惊吓与恐慌
我只想逃可是巴士司机却是以个人承担我这样是不是很自私呢？
幸亏有一个人能够问他还好吗，有没有事，可是我却。。。
这样做对吗？
当时的我吓倒
后来下车后我开始害怕起来了
很不想记得这件事
如果我等爸爸的话就不会发生这种事了或不要搭这趟巴士也不会遇到
都怪我自己这么固执。
我真的没有用这样就哭起来了
当时坐在前面的我有多害怕看到那一脆脆的玻璃和那撞击
这么突然这么危险，那些玻璃可以使我受到一些伤痕可是我没有太大的伤害可是却打击我的内心
这算是我的不幸中的大幸吗？
我很想快点的回家可是爸爸好像特别的慢，等了好像特别的久。
在车上不停的哭
觉得自己真的很没有用！！！

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