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oh finally!the tests are not going to be everyday.
for the past two months,classmates have not stop mentioning my name,teachers putting high hopes on me.this really stress me out!!!I just want to carry on my life without being in the spotlight for so many times,it's horrible.
I only like the working as a student part of me but emotional part of me that's bad.
Actually,i'm not even sure that i am being myself always try to be like my sisters,feel that i am living in the shadows.I want to be more me,to do what i want,i don't want to be a "sleepwalker"! living on other people expectations,that's tiring.
how i wish i could be free from all these thoughts and troubles...it worns me out.
better to make mistakes now than in major exams!
i will learn better if i made mistakes...
think that way maybe i could feel better(:
when was the last time i could really see the stars in a starry night,love the view in school during the testwork camp when i was sec 2 or sec 1,can't remember,it was lovely...
for the past two months,classmates have not stop mentioning my name,teachers putting high hopes on me.this really stress me out!!!I just want to carry on my life without being in the spotlight for so many times,it's horrible.
I only like the working as a student part of me but emotional part of me that's bad.
Actually,i'm not even sure that i am being myself always try to be like my sisters,feel that i am living in the shadows.I want to be more me,to do what i want,i don't want to be a "sleepwalker"! living on other people expectations,that's tiring.
how i wish i could be free from all these thoughts and troubles...it worns me out.
better to make mistakes now than in major exams!
i will learn better if i made mistakes...
think that way maybe i could feel better(:
when was the last time i could really see the stars in a starry night,love the view in school during the testwork camp when i was sec 2 or sec 1,can't remember,it was lovely...
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